Mary Jo Brown: Spring is nourishment for the soul
April is the month for Easter and is usually full of dazzling sunshine, greening of lawns and flowers blooming. All of those might be reasons that spirits soar and we continue our growth gracefully, joyously and creatively as we learn about ourselves and the beauty within us.
It’s a chance to put forth our talent and pull off something such as a knockout outfit or piece of poetry showing an exquisite side of us. By stepping out, we take a risk and trust our instincts of personal style and sense of vitality.
I’m developing a sense of what moves me to tears, makes my heart skip a beat and gives me a reason to smile with gladness. It is a certain music I hear, the sight of birds hopping around — a sure sign of spring. It’s nourishment for my eyes and ears, which I appreciate even more now that my physical being is not as good as it was. My health is getting better, though — my body, my mind and especially my soul. I’m finding out what life is really about in every sense of my being. As Easter draws closer, I understand more fully the importance of thankfulness. Inside me is a place where I’m alone, as there is in everyone. It is a place where a person can go to “renew your springs that never dry up,” as Pearl Buck said.
There are still places I would like to see and find out if they are as I picture them in my mind, people that I would like to meet or see again and projects that I would like to see finished. I have decided to take the path of reality and get my imaginary self into focus and try harder to accomplish more of what I want to do. I will take it one day at a time in order to find the real me, and I have to trust in myself. I will try to be more like the person I was when I was more in charge of my feelings and myself. I was raised a Christian and have held those beliefs, but now I’m coming back to a stronger practice of love thy neighbor as yourself. Early in life, I learned to do that and have tried to do so most of the time, though sometimes, it has been very hard. A realization has come to me that at some point in time, I wanted to be the center of the world. However, I soon realized that something was lacking, and as I grow older. I see how I was losing not only faith in myself but also the ability to take charge of my being. Now, I have another chance to go forth and be the whole me by trusting in my faith and in knowing who I truly am. As Easter draws nearer, so does the knowledge that I also am getting closer to my goal in life.
Happy birthday to Addisyn Miller, Jean Goldstein and Mary Doolin.
A Sunset Meadows potluck is at noon Fridays.